Tuesday, September 15, 2009
how to know...
i've already written about how my body loves me when i eat a certain way (meat, vegetables, some fruit, some nuts, good fats), but is that enough to a cave girl make?
what else about me makes me know that i am just like those women who lived thousands of years ago? if anyone has seen my feet, they'd know one very strong link.
also, being enclosed in modern society's institutions makes me sick and crazy. seen a tiger in too small a cage pacing, pacing, pacing...that's me in a cubicle. seriously, i did the corporate thing and my "team leader" had to call the ambulance three times in a year. i see through the trappings of society for what they are. they are traps. living in step with society is de-humanizing. it tames a person until there is no wildness left. and wild, contrary to outdated victorian ideals, is a good thing. darwin observed that the brains of wild animals were denser/heavier than the brains of domesticated animals. make no mistake, we have all been domesticated. it takes a strong person to stay wild inside.
being wild is generally more difficult than being domesticated, so i understand why so many people have allowed themselves to be tamed and trained. it is difficult to take full responsibility for your health. it is difficult to learn to identify what real food is. it is difficult to move like a wild beast, barefoot and free. it is difficult to give up the "security" of a comfortable seat on the couch. but, it is so simple.
being a wild animal means eating what you're meant to eat. it means moving like you're meant to move. it means sleeping deep and often. it means running with a pack that is like you. it means using your brain regularly and being fully aware.
i was reading a book by andrew weil this morning. he consults with a sleep expert. the sleep expert tells him that we have "flatlined" in that there is not much difference in our levels of "awakeness" between day and night. in other words, we sleepwalk through the day and stay on this edge of alertness in the night.
i've watched people, the tame and the trained. they do things without questioning why they do them. wake, work, eat, t.v., restless sleep...rinse...repeat. where is the living? where is the wild, awake beast?
one way that i knew that i was a cave girl was and is my need to be fully awake in my life countered by my need to be profoundly asleep in my nights.
watch a wild animal, or, a child before the animal has been trained out of her. when they are awake, they are alert, using every sense to experience the world. once asleep, they have completely left this dimension.
be awake. be asleep. just not at the same time.