i've been gone for a little while.
the amount of stress that i've been denying has finally caught up with me and some very old habits and patterns have taken over.
the things that i KNOW would help me deal have fallen by the wayside and i searched out substitutes for the lazy.
i learned about 6 years ago to never feel guilty or to punish myself for these lapses. they are just what i'm used to doing.
when i started this blog, i think i went in my default "i know it all" mode. the thing with that mode is that it's false. i don't know it all. i sometimes feel as if i know nothing at all! as someone who has lived too long in her head and been too valued for her smarts, it is painful to admit that there are libraries of books filled with the things that i don't know.
i am a cave girl but i am still becoming one. there are days when i am not one at all, and am instead a very lost animal grasping at carbs and modern noise to soothe my confusion.
i have been writing with a bit of the 'i've arrived, let me show you the way" tone. HA! i'm bumbling around in the dark a little bit. i know where i want to end up. i want to live as my ancestors did, as my body and mind are genetically determined to live. so many other sites about primal life really focus on the food and exercise portions of that life. that goes a very long way. but, i'm interested in my entire lifestyle, my mindset, my environment being transformed into something deeply nourishing to my deepest DNA.
i would love to explore this all with you.